Forcing the Learning

 I love to share.

If I hear about an idea, a concept, a strategy - I try it. I love 'new', I thrive on experimenting.  Let's give it a shot - after all, you learn whether or not things go well - I would even posit that I have learned more from mistakes and awkward moments than I ever have from smooth sailing.  There's nothing quite like that moment where you look at the kids, they look at you, and we all decide, "Well, that didn't work!", we decide why, we find a better solution, and the learning is stronger than ever.

I thrive on discovery

I just wrote my mid-year reflection for our professional learning goal at school. I was feeling a bit guilty this year - national pandemics and political upheaval have meant that my goals haven't had the laser focus they normally do, the team goal we developed in those heady first days of school never really connected with my on-going personal learning goals...and with 170 students during those first couple of months, who had time to focus on professional learning, literature to support a goal, finding new podcasts or webinars to support learning...and all that jazz.  Not me!  The good news for my conscience was that I have actually done quite a lot of professional learning this year.  Well, it's really my hobby - so it might not have been as purposeful as I would like, might not get me those Brownie points since the learning doesn't really connect with our team goal, but there's a lot of reading, watching, and listening going on in Bridget's world.  

Forced Learning?

Two of the items on my list of 'personal professional learning' are the endorsements that I am in the midst of.  One is my Online Teaching Endorsement. A last-minute addition, I only just made it into the course.  I did 3 different courses over the summer, anticipating a virtual class-load this fall, and I loved every moment of the learning.  The endorsement is a logical step to produce the best teaching I can for my online students.  I had no idea how different the teaching needed to be, and everything I learn is instantly integrated into the classes I lead. That's the best kind of learning.  My other endorsement is Coaching and Support Endorsement, and ... well, sometimes having the opportunity to find that something is not for you, is as powerful as finding the right fit. How much of it is because of the year it is, I don't know - but making time for something that feels like a burden and that keeps you up at night, is not something that fits well with 2020-21 teaching. But funnily enough, it's helping my teaching...immensely.  Focusing on something you don't want to do and can't escape - it's not engaging. It's frustrating. You seek help that might not be there. You aren't available when others are there to help you. You feel alone. The instructions don't make sense.  

Wow. Makes you think, doesn't it? 

We need to remember, our students haven't chosen our courses. They aren't there because they want the learning. They aren't excited to see what the new lesson is. They aren't leaping to the computer for team meetings...unless we make it that way.  

My experiences right now are reminnders every day.  Make my course the one that the kids are interested to visit, the one they want to find out what's next. the meeting that they set the timer for.  That's a good lesson.  I don't want my students to feel the struggle the way I do.

So, instead of 'encouraging' work submission by penalizing grades, I'd rather add opportunities for choice and conversations about what we 'want to do'.  Instead of mandating and threatening calls home, I'd rather find out what they want to do and what would make meetings fun.  Breakouts for social time as well as collaborative work. Singing happy birthday and creating birthday message Jam Boards. A joke committee to find corny jokes and annoying riddles. Wearing silly hats, having pet day, hosting a lesson at a local barn. After soul searching about those students who struggled virtually last fall and what opportunities for success I truly gave them, I've added a special live meeting - "Let's Get Started." Every Monday, the group of 12 or so students is invited to work with me to start the work together.  Let's get stuff done.  Let's get started together.  My strugglers seem excited. They were delighted to get personal invites in the mail. We will see how it goes.  

Ever since reading Shift This by Joy Kirr, I have sought ways to give students ownership over their learning. Slowly, gradually, I am finding ways to do this virtually - and it feels good.

So every time I sigh and open up my course to stare blankly at the screen and try to figure out what to do, I purposefully flash a mental picture of my students and think, "What can I do to make sure that this doesn't happen to them?

Good Teaching Things from 2020

As I looked at all the comments, memes, and hashtags on New Year's Eve, I saw the worldwide desire for 2020 to end. 

I get it. Man, do I get it.  I could blog about having to cancel the longed-for trip to Perth to see my daughter, or about the constant concern about my 88-year-old mum in England, 2020. 

I could write about the woes of virtual teaching and hybrid schedules. How exhausted I've been, how scary teaching in a pandemic is...

But I’m not going to.

No, I’m going to celebrate the good stuff.  Because through the lows came highs, and when I look back in the future, I’ll find plenty of commentary on the negatives, but I don’t want to forget the gifts that 2020 unexpectedly handed me.

Hey!  I like my own company!  

You ask anyone who thinks they know me, and they will say that I am very social, always want to be in the midst of things, love to talk.....and sometimes that it is true.  What isn't always understood is that is my defensive go to. If I'm uncomfortable, I will talk.  If there is silence, I will make noise.  One thing that was accentuated with the initial lockdown, lack of social endeavors, and then having more virtual classes than face-to-face, is that I like being alone. I actually enjoy my own company.  At first that surprised me, then I thought it out. As a kid, I played for hours on my own, that was when my imagination would blossom and ideas would come. Kind of like when you think of things in the shower - noting interrupts the mind and the creativity are allowed through.  The pressure to accomplish was gone. The stress of feeling the need to prove myself was taken away.  No one was watching. I could be the best I could be for ME and my students - and no one else.  No criticisms to hear or tensions to feel. 

I guess that I'm more sensitive than I knew.  

Virtual teaching is cool 😎

When we went 'online' towards the end of the 19-20 school year, I discovered a new form of pedagogy that I thoroughly enjoyed.  I could find needs and support individuals - personalization was so much easier. I wondered how it would be with students I hadn't met though.  After all, how do you forge relationships online?  I wanted to find out though - I was excited about the possibilities.  When given my 20-21 schedule, I was delighted to have 4 online sections as well as my one face-to-face class...but I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't nervous.

Fears were increased when I saw the number of students I was to have, and the first two months were quite honestly horrific. Far worse than being a new teacher, the load was immense.  Sleep was an optional extra and online devices were my constant partner. The first month of school is always tough - I describe it as our tax season - but this was ridiculous.  But then I began to find a rhythm - learned some 'tricks' - found ways to better balance my time.  I was still working most weekends and some Varying amounts of time every night, but it wasn't as all-encompassing.  All of a sudden I wasn't racing through dinner to get back to work.  I knew that I was enjoying elements of teaching virtually, but I begin to really feel that I had found my element.  I saw my kids take ownership in the same way I encourage them to do in the classroom. They took roles, shared the load, made choices.  It enriched the experience for all of us.

It has been so gratifying to feed their thirst for attention and fun. I can be whoever I want to be online, taking on whichever persona each child needs at that moment - and I have time to plan and think in ways a classroom teacher never can.

• Personalizing is simplified
• Helping students to 'learn how to learn' is actually realized!
• Watching students find independence and not relying on everything being done for them is powerful
• I can focus my time on when I am at my best, organizing accordingly
• It became a simple task to meet with parents and students, and so much less formal than when they make appointments to come to school
• I can give students special attention (positive or not) - without anyone knowing
• Experimentation and having fun with trying new things is a daily adventure

Discovering strengths ✊

I would say that my greatest strengths as a teacher are communication and giving students ownership. Both play right into the hands of virtual teaching. I found that my love of sharing the space with students in the classroom translates into the virtual space too. I quickly developed a help committee, a joke committee - these kids love to be involved with making things better. I enjoy experimenting and trying new things - every day my playground can be more fun!  I listen to others, learn, hear new ideas, learn...and try everything I can! 

And as for taking the focus away from grades and right onto learning - this is the place for that!  "Oh, they won't work without grades and deadlines!"  My kids have truly appreciated the opportunity to try, to experiment, to be bold - without fear.  It was harder at first because I had to compete with other teachers reporting more grades and with firmer deadlines, but I stayed true to my beliefs and the kids came through. They always do.

A vision of student tech reality - and taking responsibility 🖥

We are always told our students are digital natives. Then we went virtual. I had NO idea how much I had done for my students.  I was shocked at their inability to find solutions, stunned at the lack of initiative.  Were these REALLY the same kids I had had in my classroom?  I made video after video showing them how to share files, how to create hyperlinks, how to make copies, how to copy and paste - things that I always helped with unthinkingly. All of a sudden, missing knowledge was glaring.  I realized that I hadn't been helping my students to grow, I had just been helping them to 'get the assignment done.' What an eye-opener. 2020 has helped me to understand how I need to focus more on teaching students how to find answers - that's going to create much better learners, after all.  As we finished up the 19-20 school year, my focus was on developing ways to help students START the year learning how to find solutions and how to use basic skills.

Being able to have appointments, eat healthily, and even use the bathroom 😂

As a teacher, it's always hard to live a healthy life.  It just is.  Classes are back-to-back with no break in between.  You can't eat and teach (well, you can, but not if you are truly hands-on).  Being able to schedule breaks, make appointments - wow! What a gift. I can have a live meeting with my kids from 6-7pm on a Thursday night and enjoy a fun, relaxed teaching environment.  I can make choices that work for me - giving my kids the best of me.  There is no doubt that I became healthier - I even lost weight (a lockdown weight loss? Apparently a rare thing!).

The biggest 'aha' of them all was visiting my doctor, who asked me to learn from this and consider options to reduce stress in my life moving forward. I listened. I made changes. I learned.

Taking my puppy to a wedding 🐶

Virtual weddings, family Zoom meetings, watching soccer with friends in England.  Opportunities have been created that were never there before  - and I hope to goodness they stay. I would assume that wedding photographers have already got price lists out there for virtual options - and you would guess that they will keep them. Brides no longer have to have sleepless nights over those peripheral friends - everyone can share in the special day. With family in far-flung places, I have enjoyed more contact and conversation thanks to renewed effort and options. 

And then there are all the curb-side options. Pick up instead of delivery.  Drive-up options. This is good stuff!  The best drive-through of all though? That was our friends' wedding. We watched it virtually, then popped into the car with our new puppy, drove a few miles, and then got to congratulate them in person, with Toffee-Girl briefly becoming the star of the show (although she did not, of course, eclipse the bride!).

😊Final Thoughts😊

Yes, there have been glitches and headaches. Of course, there have been students who have struggled or refuse to respond to communication.  Technology has not always been my friend.  Some things are amplified where others are muted.  It's been a different teaching world for sure...

I hope to find ways to continue to teach online.  Who knows what's out there for me in the future?  I have goals and ideas and am ready for new challenges...but I am so grateful to have discovered this new way to share learning with students.  Despite the horrors of the year and the terrible reality of the pandemic, I am grateful for having been handed this unexpected opportunity.  Now it's up to me to keep learning and continue to make this the best experience I can for my kids - and me!

Teacher Appreciation Thought Starter

So I got this email from a parent - it was was really nice email that was thanking me for all that I've done, telling me that she and her daughter would like to send me an appreciation little something, and how would they do this during our quarantimes. It was a nice email.

It was very kind
It was very thoughtful, and it made me feel good.

So, I thanked her nicely, and I let her know that I have to go in twice this week to go clean out and move my room, and that she could leave a little something there, and thank you very much, and how much I appreciated it.

Then I started thinking. First of all, I don't ever remember - maybe once - receiving anything for teacher appreciation week from a parent. I think perhaps there was one time. Now the PTO always does a fantastic job, as do admin.  But parents - it's not something that crosses their mind, and why should it? Just in a couple of weeks we will be finishing up school, and then those parents who feel so inclined, occasionally give us a nice little gift or a card, and sometimes it’s something really special. I will never forget the gorgeous handmade saddle pad one parent gave me in school colors. Or the amazing Dr. Who pillow a student made for me.  Special indeed. 

But those are end of year. Not for Teacher Appreciation Week. Don't get me wrong, It’s not something I’ve complained about or something that bothers me, it just struck me as, “Huh, interesting.”  

Could it be because it's on the news everywhere? Could it be because you're seeing it on Facebook everywhere? We’re being really ‘appreciated’ right now during COVID. I wonder if we will see that next year, or whenever what we do becomes 'expected and normal' again? 

But then I thought about a little line, a throwaway comment she had in her email. Something to the effect of. “I really want you to know how much I appreciate you and all you do especially during this time.”

Especially during this time.  

Yeah, that makes me feel guilty.  

Am I working hard? Sure! Am I doing everything I can to connect with these kids? Absolutely!

Am I doing lots of one-on-ones and personal coaching - stuff that I've never been able to do before? Sure and I'm loving every minute of it!

I got a puppy.
I get to go for walks twice a day.
My husband is no longer going to Miami every week; I'm not living on my own four days out of each week.
My son is home from college. He's doing online classes; he's here at home after being away in the Navy for 7 years.
Oh, and did I mention I got a puppy?!
I’ve been gardening.
I get to ride my horse three or four times a week instead of once or twice.

Also, I get to meet with students one-on-one.  Yeah, it’s virtually, but the work we're doing is fantastic. I've tried so hard to have consistent conferring in the classroom, but there is never enough time.

My high flyers are flying really high with this independent learning.

I have kids who really didn't do much in the classroom who are now functioning.  They have time to think.  They have more support from me, and they can work when it's the right time for them. 

Sure, there are frustrations. There are some kids that, “Where are you kiddo? Just ‘cos spring break happened, it doesn't mean it's all over!” Just because there's no Milestones and no test, doesn't mean it's all done. Just because they announce that your third quarter grade cannot - has to be your grade - you can't go lower, doesn't mean that it's not worth it. I've never really given grades anyway, only for summatives. That's frustrating. I try to reach, out I try to text parents, I try to call parents, I try to text kids, I try to message kids, I try to do everything I can — and that's hard.

But there's so much joy, and there’s so much learning. I've learned so much. I can't wait for next year. I don't know what kind of teaching will see. I don't know what it's going to be like. Is it going be back to normal?

I hope not.

I hope that we will learn from this. I hope that we're going to add self-paced learning to all of our courses. I hope that we're going to help students to be independent. And even - dare I say it? - I hope for some virtual teaching. I also hope we address the equity. I hope that every kid will have a Chromebook in their hands. I hope that we can help with access to Wi-Fi. I hope that the students who need the support will get the support. But what I really hope for, is that we will stop teaching kids to get the work done, and will start teaching kids to be inspired by learning. That's what I hope.

So it’s great to feel appreciated, but let’s all be excited about what’s to come, because I think that there are great things that are going to happen in education thanks to the quarantimes.